This past week I decided I wanted to make 15 bean soup from scratch. I wanted to know what it was like to cook a soup like this from scratch It seemed easy enough, just required time. I looked at the recipe and it said to soak beans overnight or for 8 hours. I chose the overnight option. Easy enough… beans, water, go to sleep and deal with it tomorrow. Loving this receipt already. I went about my day not bothering to go back and look back at the recipe until around 3 PM. The next step was to drain the beans and cook for 2 hours… uh oh. I looked at the clock and thought, “No big deal, I have time.” I immediately got the beans cooking.
As they were simmering I decided to do something crazy and rake leaves. They were on my nerves. As I was outside doing my thing something gnawed at me and told me to head inside and check the recipe again. When I did, I slightly freaked out a bit. See it was 5:00 PM at this time…the beans had soaked, drained, and then simmered. They were ready for the rest of the ingredients to be thrown in… except my ingredients were not ready. See, I *looked* at the recipe, but I did not *read* the recipe. Big difference.
The recipe said to saute diced onions, celery, carrots, & cubed chicken prior to putting them in with the beans. My head said to just throw it all in there and let it cook… be done with it. I was getting frustrated and a tad nervous. These beans had been cooking for a long time now! What if they were going to be extra mushy, what if the flavor was not good, what if I left something else out, what if everyone hates this and I have to order pizza. My fears started creeping up but I had to continue with the recipe… we were getting hungry. As I finally got all of the ingredients FINALLY in with the beans, I simmered for about 30 more minutes and prayed it would be okay. This whole working with raw foods gig was not an easy process.
Raw material is defined as “the basic material from which a product is made“.
Using raw materials is time consuming. Each piece has to be properly handled. Had I not soaked the beans, they would have been hard. Had I not sauteed the chicken, I would have possibly poisoned my family with salmonella. Had I followed the directions as they were written I would have not freaked out and gotten frustrated with the process. Thankfully, the soup turned out delicious. I felt really good about it but resolved to read the directions… not just look at it.
Thinking about this soup made me think of my emotions. They are raw. My emotions can get the best of me, especially when I lose control. I turn into a bratty 5 year old throwing a fit. When I lose control, I lose focus. I fall into a deep abyss of guilt, regret, sadness, failure, and anxiety. I have to work really hard to get myself back to where I was… my happy place. If I am really stuck, I will grab my Wild Orange essential oil and place a drop in my hand… rub them together and find my way back to happy. Once I calm, I regain my focus. I search for the positive things and the logical, rational woman that I prefer to be returns!
Recently, I have noticed that my 14 year old son reacts the exact same way as I do. His raw emotions explode just like mine do and react in the exact same way. It makes me sad because I know he learned this behavior by watching me… and plus, he is freakishly just like me even though I did not birth him. Nurture wins! Or in this case, could lose. I have realized that I truly need to get a grip, not just for myself, but for the sake of my son’s emotions. I have to change, but how?
I am a raw piece of material. We all are. My change will not happen overnight. No change ever does. It will come one step at a time, but change can happen if we want it. It will have to be small and it will have to follow a plan. Here it goes:
- Recognize that you are raw material. You will need to pieced together slowly and possibly need help.
- Take your focus off the negative and turn it to the positive. Think happy thoughts!
- Recognize what you can and can’t control. Let got of what you can’t control… it’s not your battle.
- Always be thankful for something. Find one thing every day to be thankful for.
- Realize your reactions can change your environment. A happy Mom is a happy home. 🙂
None of these will happen overnight or all at once. You’ll have to soak for a while, then saute your focus until positive, add the positivity to your emotions, and release unnecessary control. While releasing, find something to be thankful for. Smile and relax because you just changed your emotions. 🙂